Thank you everyone for your comments.
I'm absolutely fascinated by these accounts involving clothes, lipstick, abuse or overwise - as children we are unable to cope with these things as we would as adults. None of it is good. We are a product of our experience and also the sum of our experiences.
I feel less alone and less of a freak knowing that I wasn't the only one who had issues as a child....and we turned out reasonably normal -except for this odd trait.
I hope my relating my story has helped others here feel more normal and better about themselves.