I'm feeling so very frustrated right now. Just when things seemed to have been on the right path for me everything changed. I was enjoying dressing almost every day, with my wife being fine with it, and looking into expanding my horizons being Sarah. The suddenly things blew up and it has all left me frustrated in so many ways not the least of which is not being able to dress.
My wife and I have ended up taking in our teenaged grand daughter to live with us. Her parents had a pretty messy divorce, both have remarried and to state a sad fact she isn't really welcome in either of their homes right now. I never dreamed at my age I would raising another child and worrying about school and all the other things associated with being responsible for a teenager.
This all happened in the middle of the night one night and the next day when I came home from working I found my wife had taken all my feminine things packed them up in boxes and stored them in the shed. I didn't need to ask her why I knew how she had always felt about our kids finding about my "hobby" and I knew there would be an arguement if I objected in any way.
I had counted on being able to stay dressed for several days when we went up to our summer place, and was looking forward to it. Then it turned out that our g/d would be going with us. While it was a lot of fun to have her along it was very frustrating for me because I felt like I had to give up a big part of me.
I've told my wife the other day that I was frustrated at not being able to get dressed on occasion. Her attitude was "just deal with it". So I told her that I was going to have to get away by myself for awhile. I have some work to do out of town and she was going to go along with me but I told her I wanted to go alone and take maybe a week to do some things for me.
She didn't want to discuss it so I'm not sure where it stands. What I am hoping for is to go to Denver and spend a couple of days. I had plans over a year ago to get a makeover, something I've never done and always wanted to do, and then maybe go out dressed for the first time. She knows I want to do this but I have a feeling that now she doesnt' think I should because we have this new repsonsibility. She asked who I would go out with, as I don't know anyone in Denver, and what if I got caught"?
Sorry about all this but I just needed someplace to unload all this.