First off Lea my dear, there was no hidden agenda, no malice, no contempt, no anything in my question. I know how I felt. I know how the drive to transition consumed me every breathing moment. I could not do anything or go anywhere without this damn need surfacing every time I even moved. I tried with all of my might to find distractions. I tried to bury it. I tried to over compensate and do manly things. I tried marriage and kids but that didn’t work out!
All I wanted to try to figure out by my question is, what is/was the difference between me and so many of you? Why did I need to transition at 22 and so many of you are well into your 40s 50s and 60s even your 70s yet most of you report having the need in your 20s or earlier too.