Hi Elisa, I think you have a good head on your shoulders and you will sort your relationship with your GF one way or another. Along the way mistakes would be made but hey that’s part of living and learning. We all know that denying this part of yourself is not going to work, you first have to work out what level of cross dressing would you be happy with in the near future and further down the years and communicate these with your GF and find out what she would be happy with. The problem is dynamics of our life and circumstances constantly change with that our and our partner’s desires and expectations change as well. I am out of a long marriage due to many issues including my gender expression. When I was in my relationship, I never did any kind of body hair removal and maybe I was clean shaven few days a month. I still love some facial hair in boy mode, what really hurt me the most was after my wife found out about my cross dressing the way she would come up so close to my face (when kissing and hugging) and I just knew that she was examining my face to see any trace of make up after I had a clean shave. I don’t blame her for opting out of our relationship, credit to her she just didn’t like it or wanted to deal with it and she had enough of her own issues to deal with and I wish her the best. For what is worth having a loving partner is awesome but I need and want the freedom of expressing myself without feeling guilt and shame.
Tinkerbell I think most of us here have a LOVE/HATE relationship with cross dressing especially earlier in our lives. I think you know some of the answers to your question. In summary most here genuinely believed that they could suppress and got rid of cross dressing in our lives and we are more than just cross dressers; most of us are good parents, providers and have good morals. Most of us are more than happy with our male expression and role in our community. I really think the new generations cds will be a lot more wiser in relationships than us (lets say pre GOOGLE generation) with all the information readily available, and I sincerely wish no one experiences what you or my ex wife went through. I said my SORRY to my ex wife, I can not do much more, life has to move on...