So I'm sorry I've been away for a little while. I've been dealing with some stuff in my life that has really had me down. I'm much better now thanks to some friends who I hold very dear to my heart. They are absolutely wonderful and thanks to this forum, they walked into my life and my heart and I hope they are there to stay.
Just an update on my transition and some milestones that have me very excited...
Firstly, I am exclusively ma'amed now at work. No one ever calls me sir or uses male pronouns. For all intents and purposes, I am female. I even had a lady ask me about my ex-husband.....(was married to a GG.) It feels fantastic!! Life finally feels normal. It feels right.
For my milestones, I finally went to the restroom in the lady's room. I was terrified. I have been full time for 2 months now and always held it for fear of being clocked in either room. It was a terrible feeling. Well, one day, about 2 Sundays ago I was at a restaurant and had 1 too many glasses of water... Oh Crap... So I sat there for about 10 minutes in fear of what has to be done. I finally got up from the table, headed to the ladies room and went. I was terrified! The bathroom was busy, there were several women in there........ And not one of them looked at me any different than each other... Just breath....
I did my business and got the heck out of there and spent the next 20 minutes trembling like a leaf. Milestone 1 down...
My second milestone was being gendered correctly even when I wasn't trying!! 2 days ago, I was enjoying my day off of work. I didn't bother with makeup, wig, shaving... Nothing. I was lounging around my house so there was no need. Well..... I started getting hungry.... I started craving taco bell... And dear God, when you start craving something while on HRT, it is a MUST HAVE!! Needless to say, I was headed to taco bell...
I was wearing a tank top, a very unisex cardigan, and some jeans. No wig, no makeup, no shave.... Just me in my rawest of forms... I had every expectation to be gendered as male. I had mentally prepared for it and told myself I would not get upset. I pull up to the drive thru and the guy hands me my food and says, "here you go, have a wonderful night ma'am!"
!!!!!! SUCCESS !!!!!!!
I'll post a picture of myself in the car from that adventure. I of course was blown away so I have to take a picture lol.
Anyways... Needless to say, things are finally looking up for me!!