I recently came back from Fantasia Fair. Overall it was an amazing, wonderful experience. A couple of pictures below. On the other hand, while i was there my wife of 34 years texted and said I had to give up crossdressing or our marriage was over. I've tried that before, made it a year and "backslid", so she knew, as I reminded her, that this was just not something I could do. So, she moved across the country, outing me to our 5 adult children on the way.
The interesting thing is that they all said they couldn't care less about my crossdressing! Something my wife told me for years would freak them out and destroy our marriage, just wasn't an issue for them at all. That gives me an incredible sense of relief. I came out to my best friend just before I left for FanFair and he has been incredibly supportive through this, as have my children.
Overall, though, I'd say my life of the last couple of weeks has had a very surreal feel. I was completely closeted for the past 8 years, hiding my true self from my children and friends, at my wife's insistence, feeling incredibly guilty and constantly worried about being discovered.
Now, between being able to be en femme 24/7 at Fan Fair, and then being so incredibly out of the closet that I can't even see the door anymore--my head is spinning a bit. I mean, I walked the runway twice at Fan Fair, and now all my clothes are out in my closet, instead of stuffed into a cardboard box in the back of the closet, and I've moved my wife's remaining clothes downstairs to make room.
This is not the way I expected things to turn out. It is a lot to get a handle on!
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