I have been a closeted cross dresser for years. My ex wife used to accommodate me on occasion, but we have been divorced. I've been single for a while and am finally wanting to reach out and have some kind of relationship. I recognize that I may be gay. Since I have been dressing I have had a few encounters with men that were quite pleasurable but ultimately temporary.

I would like to have some kind of ongoing friendship in this world. It seems that there is no "love" in the gay world as I wish to have. I imagine that "Mr. Right" is out there somewhere, but at the same time I may need to find a woman to receive the intimacy that I crave. And not physical intimacy but the kind that you have when you are close to someone.

Does anyone have any thoughts on these issues?