Hi everyone
Lately I haven't had much of a chance to "really" dress or even the desire. I do, here and there, because it calms me and relaxes me (which based upon this post, I seem to lack the reason as to why it does), but I haven't gone full nines or even to the point where I want to do pictures, even though I have a whole bunch of new outfits I'd love to show you, it just isn't there. Hasn't been since Halloween. You would think that the cooler weather would have me dressing More rather than less.
I got to thinking though, and that's why I only want CD responses to this, is this more of a Cos play to you? I mean, we often read about it here as being a "Hobby" and I think that for a lot of us CD's, that is exactly what it is, though an expensive one.
As CD's, we don't have a "Inner Girl" trying to get out, don't feel trapped in our own bodies that they need surgical changes made, nor do we really need to be accepted as "our true selves" as this isn't our true self when dressed. It makes me think "What exactly is this?".
We all know we will never know WHY we CD, we will never be able to stop CDing but while we may think we are CD, a lot of times it goes past the line of being CD into being TG. I know, as do many of you?, that the buck stops here, there is no transitioning on the horizon and I can say that truthfully, so what is this to you? just a hobby? cos play?
What I am saying and asking here may not even make sense to be honest LOL I am finding this hard to put into words, I am fubbling with the actual question so I guess at it's barest form, is this cos play to you? because when I look in the mirror as of late, that is more and more what it seems to be for me. I just want to pick your brain a bit
Have a great week!