I have been crossdressing almost daily in secret for the last 9 years, thinking that would be my personal secret forever. I never imagined that one day someone would see me, or even talked to me while en femme. Recently, the situation started to change quickly, for good.
In July, one of my friends reveals he is a TG (MtF), so he (now she) is the first TG I know in person. Later I was considering revealing my secret to her, but that didn't happen, I was too scared to reveal it to anyone.
I finally revealed it to one of my gay friends: he invited me for a Halloween party at his place, and the year before, some gay friends of him dressed as girls (more towards the drag queen style). So I used the opportunity to dress up as girl too, without outing myself as much as possible. That became my avatar picture. To this day, I still love the memories of that party.
While preparing for that party, I learned the basics of makeup, and I have done a lot of progress since that time, but still a lot needs to be learned.
A few days later, I registered to this forum, and started posting, receiving compliments, and sharing my experience and advices. Everyone is so nice and supportive here. Hugs to everyone!
Five days ago, I finally revealed to my TG friend I was a crossdresser. Her face expression was priceless and we had a short talk about it as I had to leave for another place soon after. I invited her to come to my place yesterday, and that's when happiness followed!
After we ate dinner and talked about various unrelated topics, we started to talk about makeup, as I was asking for some advice. In 5 minutes, I learned so much about eyeshadow, mascara, foundation, etc. That was impressive. I then showed her what I had, to get more advices, and that's where she started using some of my makeup on herself to demonstrate. It started to feel like a "girl night", talking about topics I never would have before.
I asked if I could show her my cloth collection, and she was interested. We started to go through, and the situation was very comfortable actually. This is the first time I show my closely guarded secret, and I did not even feel uncomfortable with the situation. Everything felt natural.
We then switched to talking about bras. I received my first bra a few days ago, but the size I took was too small, even if I measured carefully. She helped me getting the right measure, and we talked about the different types of bras. That was unreal for me, and once again I felt comfortable the entire time. She was also very happy to help and discover what I was hiding.
She then liked one of my dresses and wanted to try it. Seeing one my dresses on someone else was a reality check for me. Since those have never been worn by a girl before, and I never saw one of those dresses on someone outside, it felt something belonging to my world, not reality. That was an incredible feeling.
When she saw my Halloween costume (my avatar), she was saying "no way you fit in this". The dress is one size, it is very stretchable. And I wore it... After that, I was getting warm in it, and rather than switching back to guy mode, I asked her if she was OK with me wearing one of the dress (even if I had no makeup, so a "man in a dress"). She said yes, and I wore one of my spaghetti strap dresses to be less warm. That moment... I will remember it for a long time.
What started as a visit of a friend became a girls night, with lots of topic I never talked about before in person. That was a dream!
The cherry on the cake was when she left, she told me we should go shopping together very soon, particularly for makeup. What?!? I couldn't believe it. That is so awesome! I am not going to let that opportunity go away.
This morning, when I woke up, everything felt like it was an actual dream. It didn't happen... But there was that feeling I never felt before. Inside me, a feeling of softness filling my entire chest area, and breathing felt very easy. That feeling was real, I was smiling non-stop. This wasn't a dream!! I was happy the entire day! I had stressful days at work recently, and all bad problems got solved the same day, so my entire day was wonderful. I couldn't stop thinking about it.
I texted my friend to say how happy I was, and to thank her for her support and help. I got an answer back (reality check #2).
As I was typing this post, I received a text to go shopping with her Sunday. I cannot wait!!
And in 12 days from now, I will be getting my first professional makeover with a photoshoot. Another part of the dream going to come true.
Thanks for reading my long post, but I feel so happy right now, I had to share it... and I cannot stop smiling