Lately I've been in that dark place again and it got me to thinking because I will ask myself some of the really hard questions a lot when I'm in that place.
I have realized that with all the stress that is unrelated to my GD that I have a bit of a battle going on.
On the one side, I know intellectually that I have to be prepared to lose a lot or shed that which will not work in my life. The biggest thing is my marriage. Things have not been going well with my wife and I don't think it's related with my wife. She seems to be driving me to choose between her or my family that I hadn't had contact with, until about two to three years ago, for a ten to twelve year period.
On the other side, my heart wants to cling and fight for what I've had for almost 17 years. A possibly failing one sided marriage.
I have come to realize that my stress comes from this little internal war on top of trying to deal with my GD.
Now I have people that I can talk to, to help me through all this and I do have the complete support of my family no matter what happens.
I was wondering how many others have had this kind of battle and how you dealt with it.