I heard a TED talk the other day about the corrosive effect of keeping a personal secret. One of the speakers mentioned the effect of keeping her homosexuality secret from friends and family for years and how it affected her behaviour and relationships with others, including people she worked with. She worked as a waitress and came to deeply dislike children who frequently and quite innocently would ask her if she was a boy or a girl. Although she was deep in the closet she compensated by dressing in a very unfeminine and agressive style. When she visited her family the strain of keeping conversation on topics other than herself was a constant battle. It was her mother who finally guessed the situation and this lady said that when she finally told her family about her sexuality and her desires, she felt as if she had become lighter than air.
I was reminded of so many people who are members of this site who are completely in the closet and have been for most of their lives. The guilt and social alienation that comes from this must be very corrosive. Cross dressing takes a toll on both cross dressers and on significant others who either don't want their partner to admit to being a cross dresser or have to share the secret and suffer with their cross dressing partner. I know that for me it has lead to constant battles with depression and even suicidal thoughts.
I wish for the day when all cross dressers, and so many others who are not currently considered not an acceptable part of the sexual mainstream, can finally be free of this incubus.
This topic may have been covered before but reading some recent posts I thought it timely to raise it again.