I've had several close calls recently where wifey almost caught me. I don't want to risk my marriage - I'm afraid wife won't understand. The urge to dress is too powerful. Dressing up relaxes me....I love to feel my feminine side. This is my second marriage - sometimes I wish I never remarried so I could live this lifestyle. It's a love-hate thing every day for me.....torn between purging....but can't bring myself to throw out my girly clothes. It just feels so good and so right to slip into pantyhose and a bra and some satin jammies. I wish I could share this with my wife, but I'm terrified she'd leave me. I keep telling myself I should stop, but I can't.....the urge to feel like a woman is too strong.