Good evening everyone,
My wife should be coming home by the end of the week and I am happy about that. At this point it’s not a matter of if I’m going to tell her, but rather when. This has been such a wild ride, I feel like I finally opened the bottle and everything came flooding in so fast. Really it has only been three months since I came to terms with what I wanted to do my whole life and wow I started with some old items that I’ve had forever and now I have a nice little wardrobe, accessories, heels…….I have more heels now then my boy shoes….and makeup. I’ve really been learning so much about makeup, though I still need much practice, eyeliner seems to be my nemesis. I’ve been out and about several times and not just to gay bars I actually sat and had dinner at Denny’s one night and I stopped at my local 7-11 to pick up something’s totally dressed. I’m not boasting it’s just that I let Victoria out and she really took control. I would also like to say that this forum has been a big part of that and so much help.
So why am I sad? I have spent the night packing and hiding all my girly things. I don’t want my wife to come home and stumble on something before I can talk to her. She’d jump to conclusions and that wouldn’t be good. This awakening has been so good for me and I have learned so much about myself and there is so much more that I want to do. I know it will come, but now I just have to temper my emotions and prepare myself for the “big talk” but OMG packing up my dresses, going back to wearing my boxers, and my heels…. I love heels… yes I’m a grown man crying about not being able to look pretty. Putting this all away for now has just got me down. You have all been a big help and thank you all for listening sorry for the rambling, but I’ve had a couple two three drinks tonight.
Thank you all, keep doing what you do best, being yourselves.
Love ya
Victoria