Hi again everyone, Eric/Erica here, thank you for all of your replies and insight for me last week, it really means a lot to me! I'm trying really hard to give some thought and time to this unexplored female side of me but it's been really difficult as of late. I'm currently working a full time, going back to school (online classes), as well as taking my daughter to dance, gymnastics, and girl scouts. My wife and I switch off on those duties, but my weeknights usually consist of doing that or doing homework/studying. On top of all this, my wife has been having some health problems lately that may require surgery in the next 6 months. Also, two of my coworkers recently left and the company has no immediate plans on replacing them, so I'm also taking on 2x workload at work. Needless to say, I'm under a bit of stress. :/
I do think all of this stress has triggered my urge to dress, which has always been underlying, but I've been able to keep it under control. I would love more than anything right now to get out of the routine for a day and find someone to help me dress up / make up like a woman. I have some gender confusion underlying all of my issues and I feel that I need to fully dress up as a woman and look into the mirror a few times before I put anymore thought into that. One thing at a time! With everything going on in my life, it's hard to find any time to pursue the female me, and timing to talk to my wife about it is very poor right now. Talking to a psychologist and talking on these boards is going to be my best way of coping through these times!