Hi
I've been absent for a few months, but just wanted to let everyone know things are ok.
I decided not to go back to my job as teacher in my current school and look for something new, a new school, or maybe even something totally different. I'm still on sick-leave till the end of this schoolyear, so I do have some time to look around and some time for myself as well. I'm going to tell my school, and colleagues, this week or next week that I won't be returning. A stressy time, but I'm going to be happy it's all behind me.
My parents are still having a hard time with me being transgender. They still see it as some 'extreme' form of searching for happiness and hope my psychologist will put my two feet back on the ground. I can understand their 'hope', but it hurts that they can't believe me based upon what I say and that they can only see the world through their own glasses. Luckily I have my aunt that supports me all the way.
The sessions with my psychologist are going well. I'm making a lot of progress, despite of the lack of support from my parents, and might start HRT in the near future and start transitioning probably at the end of the year. I still find it hard to believe that all of this might become reality. A little more then a year ago, I didn't know about any of this, or about myself. Now, I know the feeling, the desire to be a woman, to be me, has always been present in my life, although suppressed. My heart is shouting that this is right for, but my head is still catching up sometimes.
I'm still going to a monthly gathering as well. Dressing up at home is fun, but going out makes it even better.
Anyway, I hope all goes well with everyone.