Hi grils some things came up about me on the fourm. Witch has made rethink what or who i am. Some wnat about me i only have around 163 post it not that i dont went to hqve more it i dont spell good and my grammar is shit. If not for that i would have quite a lot more.
Ok i have said this before i dress aver day do my hair and make up depending on what i am doing. My wifes know i dress but not to the extent i do. I do this aver day during the week. On the weekends i dress down most of the time i have womans clothes on but gender neutral. Depending on her mood i mite get away with more girly dress and if not she will tell me to change man up. When we are out if i am miss gender shit hits the fan. I have been dropping hints to the fact i am tg ( unbrella word and this is from the psychologist website). She calls me girl and i wont kiss a girl. As soon as i say YES I AM she will no you are not. I have not had the out out talk about being transgender yet can not take care of my self financially yet. Working on it.
ok here is the definition of tg now this is from the web no mine and i dont remamber from witch one.
Transgender is an umbrella term for persons whose gender identity, gender expression or behavior does not conform to that typically associated with the sex to which they were assigned at birth. Gender identity refers to a person’s internal sense of being male, female or something else; gender expression refers to the way a person communicates gender identity to others through behavior, clothing, hairstyles, voice or body characteristics. “Trans” is sometimes used as shorthand for “transgender.” While transgender is generally a good term to use, not everyone whose appearance or behavior is gender-nonconforming will identify as a transgender person. The ways that transgender people are talked about in popular culture, academia and science are constantly changing, particularly as individuals’ awareness, knowledge and openness about transgender people and their experiences grow.
When i was a kid i dont remamber wenting to be a girl this is up to 6,7. I dont remember whin i found this site the first time. I only posted the minimum just so I could read certain things. Now i have been on here 3 time. Would get off and deleat aver thing. But when I read testimonials from outher girls it would make me think back did i went to be a girl. So as i look back there were signs. Shaved my legs not to good the first time cut my shin from the knee to the ankle. Lol would try my moms stuff on. Now that dos not constitute me being a girl. Moveing forward some years. Thats when i got interested in girls and sex. But not this is late 60. And gay was not ok and sure did not know aanything about cd,tg,ts but all so interested in boys I always wanted to be the girl when i was with them but I was also the aggressor.
And this follow me from then on I say around 16 17 when I started experimenting with clothes first time getting dressed fully was 20 I remember as it was yesterday I even looks for Crossdressers to meet. But naver found a place or someone to talk to. Fast forward i would all was have some woman clothes around. purge buy more purge again you know the story. But not any more thay hang in the closet and in my Chester drawers. I have come to realize but I do have gender identity disorder and this is a definition for that
Gender identity disorder*(GID) or*gender dysphoria*is the formaldiagnosis*used by*psychologists*and*physicians*to describe people who experience significant*dysphoria*(discontent) with thesex*and*gender*they were*assigned at birth.*
Now moveing on with that being said (gd) the pink fog hit me hard and i dressed aver night cdr in then. And agen i purged because of my wife. I could not take her constant belittling of me. Guess what did not take long for me to start allover. But this time i got nice clothes to blend. I think this is when i started to figure out how i was. But still scared shitlist to go out. That took a nuther 4,5 years. Once i got my look down it was a lot easier thinks YouTube.
The now after i got hurt at work was when i started really go full time this was 2009. As my confidence grew i would go out more. Now theres no place i won't go as Cindy me i have been to aver story in my town i don't hide it. And it a small town. Now i see me liveing as a woman 75% right now i run in womans workout clothes. I Lounge in womans clothes. It all i think of how can i be come a woman. I have ask my DR to go on hormones and i had a appointment with the endo but canceled it the day of. I had a friend die the day before from a blood clot in the legs witch is common on the medicine with that and being scared s******* to start is why I cancelled. But i let my dr know it no uncertain terms that I did want to go on the hormones but would wate some.
I am on a soybean based diet what should a high estrogen diet and my boobs have gotten bigger as of now my estrogen level is that of a woman's. This is from the blood test done by my dr. The only thing wrong is my tosterone is also normal for my age. Crap i was hopeing it would be down. So we all got the story now. Am i TG or TS. Or am i just to dam scared to say i am transexual or ready to move to the next step here the definition for ts
Many identities fall under the transgender umbrella. The term transsexual refers to people whose gender identity is different from their assigned sex. Often, transsexual people alter or wish to alter their bodies through hormones, surgery, and other means to make their bodies as congruent as possible with their gender identities. This process of transition through medical intervention is often referred to as sex or gender reassignment, but more recently is also referred to as gender affirmation.
I have been think long and hard on this for the last 2 days before i post this so what do u think love cindy