Why.... I'm pulling myself out of another week or so of anger, depression, wall punching ,WTF am I doing mental state... I thought I was over this, thought I was passed that point. Why the irrational mindset, why the self doubt. I have so much, an envious family, work and social acceptance and certainly no right to be feeling like this... I feel so selfish, unworthy to complain.
I've lost my first friend, my best friend, a fellow CD/TG who couldn't come to terms with my apparent freedom. If only she knew how fragile the veneer of my public confidence, how tenuous my 'in your face world' attitude was... The loss of that friendship is a real stab to the heart... New found girly emotions are working overtime. I'm so over crying...
Why can't this be easier? Dare I say it sucks to be me again?