I was sitting at work today and I don't remember what triggered it, but I realized that six months ago today was "Steve's" last day at work. I completed the day, went home, and at exactly this time I removed male clothing for the last time and that was the end of it.
It has made me reflect a little on the changes and how I have settled into things. Oddly, some of my self realizations came last week at Diva Las Vegas as there was some interactions, in particular with people who mean a lot to me, that really locked me in on some thoughts. Then today I noted how I reacted on two occassions. First a new person arrived in the team I support. I introduced myself and had a thought in the back of my mind about existing coworkers telling her and then a feeling came that it probably would not happen. It might, but it showed my comfort in their acceptance. Then I saw someone that used to work at the company, left before my transition, and was just hired back on. I started to go over and say hi and then just thought that he doesn't know me any more so I will just wait and see if we meet all over again.
It is only six months and I am in the "groove". I have reached the comfort zone and others are accepting Sue for who she is and the toughest person, me, is now accepting Sue. It seems like it has been so long because I no longer react when I hear Steve or sir and other related reactions are all gone.
One interesting note is that two weeks ago I had an amusing interaction. I worked with a guy for a couple of years and pretty much regular interaction throughout the day. We both moved to different areas in the company. But I walk the halls a lot and say hi to everyone and see him at least 2-3 times a week. Well on that particular day, he calls me over. When I get there, he goes "I just wanted to let you know that I just realized who you are". Really? After 5 1/2 months? Sometimes these things are just surprising.
