Donna, I would like to goout in public more. But, i am very conflicted about this, because of religion,family of origin around, paranoia. At six foot six, and 245 lbs, my size immediately outs me. For sure, even in bloke mode, i get noticed all the time for my size. Dressed as a woman, every eye is on me, in my vicinity! I have been out about a dozen times, in ten years. And, i hope to go to a classical concert in the park, but alone, as always. Women tend to go in groups, or pairs, very seldom alone. I am always solitary, which, with my size, also outs me. I Wish i had such a thick skin, that what others think and say, doesn't bother me, but, having been bullied as a child, for many years, and into adulthood, I am paranoid. I hope to try going out again fairly soon, someday. or night. Putting my fears, and worries out, and just going. Sometime.
