Big trouble with my sister lately. As depressed as I have ever been yesterday. No one to talk to anywhere in this cliquish, unfriendly town. Almost got in fight at a gas station,, nothing but negatives piling up . I decided to write out a suicide letter, and instructions on what to do with my things,and cats. Was planning on doing it today. But, i woke up with both my cats on me, purring, and looking at me caringly. I decided to put it off.