Of late, there has been an ache in mind and soul wanting ever more to be female, something not satisfied by just CDing. This happens somewhat cyclically but is usually endured till it calms down. The severity does help with understanding how some handle the drive by resorting to drugs, life threatening measures, or transitioning. Several nights ago, while doing the dishes (don't cook but do help), I looked at the reflection in the window and silently screamed "I want a woman's body!" Then just a few seconds later, had the thought, is there a difference between wanting a woman's body and wanting to be a woman or are they both the same? The question has continued to nag a little. (Hope this is not one of those how many angels can dance on the head of a pin questions.)