Well, I haven't posted in a while. After much discussion with my partner, it became clear that moving forward with crossdressing or exploring my tg side was not feasible. So, either I quit or go back in the closet (even from her). Decided to go back in the closet. So, dressed up while visiting mom again. We went out to dinner and it was fun, but not NEARLY as awesome as it would be if my partner was just a little accepting. So, my future is uncertain. I will preserve my marriage at all costs, I know that. It is more important to me than cross dressing or expressing my female aspect. In the past, I've gone for long periods of time without cding and been very happy. Maybe I can still do that. Not sure. I might take a break from cding/facebook/cd.com, etc. for a while just to clear my head.
This time, I'm not really looking for advice, so I'd rather you didn't offer. I'm just venting. Words of understanding and sympathy and prayers are welcome. I'll probably post my recent pics soon. : ) Thanks to everyone here for all the support and providing a safe place to process.