Im hoping some girls here can shed some light on this. And maybe those who have seen a counselor or have started hrt would be able to relate better. But it would be nice to hear from everyone on their feelings.
I myself am so confused right now. I have been a cd for over 30 yrs. Im 46 now, and have been dressing since around 13. Been through most of the usual paths. Girlfriends, purge, marriage, purge, divorce, purge. Now I am at the stage where I honestly do not know where I fit in. It all started as a sexual, experimenting stage, then progressed to dressing and trying to look the part as best as a guy can. Now, I rarely dress at all. Well in the sense that a cd would. Now my dressing is just wearing what I want. I wear what I feel comfortable in. Im letting my hair grow out, trying to keep it presentable but Im sure people question it. Im not "manly" by any means. Im stuck presenting male even though my brain is screamin at me day in and day out. Where does it go from here. I feel I need to find a way to break free and just be myself, but I am so afraid of the outcome and lack of acceptance by family and everyone around me.