For those who've been here for a couple of years you may know most of my basic facts, I don't want to go into too much of that apart from what basically drives my CDing.
I never claim to be different so I hope others will agree that their lives have a similar thread.
My Cding started with an unexpected sexual occurrence dressed and the link has never gone away, I didn't need to be dressed to enjoy sex with women but it does take it to a higher level . I'm sure I had and still have a high T level so dressing and sex alone has always happened and still does ( I felt this touched on Transvestic Autogynerphilia ) . Like most in the earlier years guilt followed the deed so the need to rid myself of the clothes usually followed, now that doesn't happen. In some respects I don't always like my dressing to result in sex at some point, but now I remain dressed, I know now there's something in my CDing beyond sex !
After almost ten years of my wife's lack of interest I feel I've gone almost full circle. We have talked about this and my wife knows she is being substituted, I hope she doesn't beat herself up too much over it but does accept I still have needs . I accept that part of me is still a fit and active male but this is not in anyway an excuse to boast about my capacity !
To get to my question revolves round my gender counselling that starts on Thursday. I read that some members had been prescribed Tblockers , I assume that if testosterone is reduced , sexual interest may ebb and perhaps reduce the need to dress as a stimulant . Is this a correct assumption ? This is making the assumption that the therapist may want to offer me a way of settling my mind !
I have to now admit that after all these years of the shame and guilt associated with CDing I now don't want it to stop . It gives me something in my life that I don't and will never now get from anything else ! I almost feel that a so called normal man is missing out on something very special, the sad part is others don't see it like that !
I guess it poses another question, where does that feeling place me on the gender road ?