Did two hours of shoe shopping at the mall last night....wonderfully joyous, sometimes uncomfortable or anxious....first time trying on shoes in my home town.
Now I have a pair of low "sensible" and comfortable heels I can wear for hours tomorrow....my wife and I have agreed she will vacate the house one day per month so I can dress fully at home and be free to explore my gender fluidness....yippee.
Tomorrow will be second day and my first opportunity to see Eve in the mirror with hair, make-up and fully dressed. I am very excited, joyful, and a bit afraid. I also have to buy some make-up today.
I am grateful for the advice on make-up and posted you tube tutorials, I am afraid I will suck and look a mess.
I am afraid I will be taken by the pink fog and discover I need much more time.
I am afraid the illusion will not be strong enough to satisfy the need to express my feminine / female self.
I am afraid I am going to lose my wife as I discover I need to experience Eve more and more.
I need to remember to let go of the future and thoroughly enjoy tomorrow. Live today. Go to work, get the work done for today. Then live tomorrow, tomorrow.....
Thanks for listening and for your support and feedback. I will need to lean into your support tomorrow.
Peace
Eve