ok so im new to this site and i have never talked to anyone about this stuff in person or on the internet..So i have been crossdressing now for 20 years it started out small when i was around 6 or so i would go downstairs and put on my moms heels and gloves/hats.. I loved it the way they look and feel on me and thats about as far as it went for a while. Then in high school i was over at a friends house and his mom was always doing laundry and i took a pair of his sisters silk underwear .. I felt so bad but they felt so nice and looked good to. Then my dad got re married and someone gave his wife lots of nice clothing and she never took any of them so i did. So i took a 2 dresses and a skirt and 4 pairs of heels... I love heels... So i took some of them and it felt right... But after a while something in my head tells me that this is wrong and then i toss everything... I have done this 4 times now and i get mad after because i have had some nice stuff like a wig/corsets/makeup.. Now i am 29 years old and i cant keep fighting it i am a very shy person even in boy mode and i have a hard time buying clothing because i am always thinking what people think about me.. So my question is how do i go about buying clothing and do anyone know of some good places?? I live with two other guys and they cant know that im in to this..
Thanks for your time.
Veronica putters