It is a big relief, Launa!
I also apologize if sometimes I may sound a bit demanding. Maybe it is the language barrier (you know, I am NOT a native English speaker).
Anyway, I, differently of a lot of you girls, am very fearful and even after about 40 years crossdressing I never had the guts to go out in public. The problem with me is that I am too lo-profile, too discreet and I think too much then I keep imagining all sort of situations where I could be caught then I just prefer to forget about the idea.
When I read your testimony, I got scared about you only to imagine that you could be putting yourself in jeopardy because a silly reason and because stupid person that you don't even know. It simply doesn't pay for the risk!
Sure, I know! We aren't perfect (we are all humans, aren't we???) and we make mistakes. Once in a while I catch myself showing the finger or yelling a bad word in the traffic, but one second later I ask myself why in the hell I did that! Fact is we won't fix the human kind and we are surrounded by idiots (they may not stop to come from everywhere!) so the world is becoming a harder place to live in every day. Nowadays I even avoid to watch news because is simply disgusting to see how easily people are killing someone else for futile reasons. I absolutely wouldn't like to know that something tragic has happened to a sis of mine.
So, please... do whatever you do... be careful to yourself. We all here are family and we love each other.
A big kiss in your heart!