I don't know exactly what the crossdressing represents in your life. I am not talking about guys in the trangendering process, but the real crossdressers that are happy on live as a man but that have the urge of being a girl once in while.
For me it is overwhelming. The urge to dress is like a drug need that at certain point I will have to sate. Also it is very straining and even stressing to keep secrets, hide clothes, the ghost to be caught, anyway, all this burden of a double life. Don't get me wrong, I do love the girl that lives in me but mainly because I didn't have any choice unless to learn to like her. However if I could choose I would rather never had met Luciana!
Now imagine if one day a stranger knocked your door holding a box with a big red button on the top and said "You can completely wipe off of your life all the crossdress impulse and all the memories that you have done crossdressing once. All that you have to do it to push this button." (I stole it from 'The Box' movie... lol...)
Who of you would press the button?
I guess I would without think twice.