I'm 22 years old with nothing really to show for in life, no real friends, no girlfriend, etc. On top of all of this, my fetish towards CDing has grown to unbelievable lengths. The problem is, it keeps me away from friends, my old hobbies, everything. I want to be able to nurture my "real" side for once and maybe obtain a college degree, possibly even get a girlfriend who is okay with what I do(never had a girlfriend). I just feel like I'm filling some sort of lonely void within myself when I dress up.
I love CDing but I hate it at the same time, it's literally harder to quit than cigarettes, and I did manage to quit smoking cigarettes. It may sound funny, but i'd say this fetish is a BIG addiction that takes me away from reality sometimes. Another part of me realizes what it really is I should be worrying about right now... getting out of my mom's house, getting a job and going to school.
CDing isn't my only addiction of course but it's my main one right now. I know it'll always be a part of me, but I want to take a little "break" from it for awhile. I know me, and I know there's really no way I can integrate this in a healthy way, the erotic stimulation I get from it is incredible. Has anyone had experience in taking a break for a little while to attempt to improve your life. Seems like most of you here are in your 40s and have an established income.
I see a lot of people saying "embrace it!". I think I've fully exhausted that privilege. I'm an all or nothing type of person. Has anyone here had experience in taking a break for awhile?