This thread may be a little disturbing for the elders in forum, but I don't want in any way to offend anyone. This is a subject that really concerns me. About to turning 50 the fact is that I am not getting younger and once in a while I catch myself thinking about this.
The other day I was trying a corset and noticed that it didn't look as gorgeous as a similar piece used to be 20 years ago. Then I noticed that my body is not as attractive as it used to do before. I still have a round butt but when I was skinny and had a small waist it looked like a girl's butt, but now it doesn't seem to be as appealing. Then looking at my shaved legs I can see that the skin is not the same anymore.
The point is that IN MY MIND, Luciana is a girl that will be young forever (probably at her 25) and she is very curvy and sexy. When I look at the mirror now I can see that she is starting to fade away because I am getting older while she is stuck at her 25. I don't know if my CD impulse will survive to my aging, but I keep thinking how I will feel when I look at the mirror and figure out that Luciana is not there anymore. I don't like to think about me as my grandma.
Anyway, regardless the CDing, I have this particular problem with aging. I hate the process. And I don't buy all the statements about the compensation of maturity, wisdom and such. For me aging is just an unfair process where my body will be taken off of me. And no matter what I do I cannot accept it. The CDing stuff just makes it harder to stand.
How do you handle this? Someone else has this problem with aging?