For how many of you did this start out as a fetish?

[mikeyp]

So, I honestly found out about my my addiction to dressing like a woman last year. It makes me aroused like nothing else. It's been a super confusing year for me, confused about my orientation, everything. Slowly I'm going back to normal though. Anyway, my fetish is super addicting right now. I'm into the "sissy boy" genre of things, and while it is great fun, it also keeps me away from pursuing women.

It went age play> sissy play for me. Some tell me that this is a sign of a repressed transexual and that distresses me greatly, lol. I've managed to live 21 years of a happier life without partaking in this fetish though. It was always there, but wasn't strong until I opened the box

[pamela7]

it did for me, wearing panties at times for 12 years before i even thought about dressing fully! (bit slow on the uptake, I was)

[mikeyp]

Hehhhh, yeah I have other female clothing, but sometimes I decide not to wear it. It's mostly the panties that get me going for now. I tried a bra, but it doesn't really do it for me Something about panties....

[cdheels]

It did start as fetish to me when I was younger (around 15). I'd start with some sexy lingerie my mom had lying around, I stop for a while and started again a couple of years ago by buying some high heels (I got really hooked on platform heels) and scaled from there (gf being supportive made this a lot more easier), the fetish part is still there but It isn't my 'main' thing now.
I guess it evolves with time and you, when it won't be 'new', you probably start to look things differently.

I think you don't need to be distressed with this situation, from what I see here in forum it's a recurring question and people dealt with it eventually. Like you said it has been a tough and confusing year for you. Probably you could let the haze set and think better about what you want regarding all of this.

[Caroline Ind]

I started during my teen years and it is definitely a fetish to me, I have a strong fetish for makeup and that's where it started.

[NicoleScott]

Some people here might tell you that you will progress, outgrow, evolve, etc. From the fetish stage. Take it from someone who knows otherwise, don't count on it. Maybe, maybe not.
The pleasure is addicting, and may interfere with a relationship. But you can experience the pleasure your fetish brings to you and live a normal life as long as you don't let it get out of control, like demanding time, attention, focus, money, etc. that needs to go elsewhere.

[mikeyp]

@Nicole

I knew the fetish was always there with little signs, like i'd ask myself when I was a kid "why doesn't my mom wear skirts?", tried on her clothes and felt aroused, etc. I just didn't really KNOW about the fetish until last year. I then tried to find people I could relate to and was led to multiple TG communities, heard about bruce jenner, etc and became very confused. It has become one of the main addictions I have right now though. The pleasure I get from it has only increased from the first time I indulged, lol.

I'm slowly becoming less anxious about my "situation" though, not really repressing it anymore, but I've read about the nature of fetishes on the internet and how they can take on a life of their own. It makes sense.

Thanks guys!

[docrobbysherry]

I began dressing out of the blue in my 50's, Mikey. At the time, I think I could best be described as Trans or TS? Because I wanted to become a female.

But, dressing soon became an exciting turn on for me. Now, 18 years later, I realize I am simply a closet CD. And, even at my advanced age, it is still exciting to see a sexy female in my mirror! In private. When I'm prepping to go out and when I'm out? Sex never enters my mind!

I've come to realize and accept that Sherry stands between me and having a real, live GF. As has been said, these fetish things CAN be very addicting!

[fiona frisson]

Really good point nicole ...confronting yhe need or benefit of controlling a fetish

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Mikeyp, At age four I didn't even know about fetishes .

[janetcd2]

I started with women's shoes and never stopped even though I dress a lot shoes are still a huge turn on and my girl friend loves it. We have all kinds of matching shoes from flats to high high heels

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[TrishaTX]

Some people here might tell you that you will progress, outgrow, evolve, etc. From the fetish stage. Take it from someone who knows otherwise, don't count on it. Maybe, maybe not.
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Total agreement 49 years old here been dressing since I can remember and I still love it allot...great turn on, and it makes me happy.

To everyone's point do not be s=distressed and unless you re talking to a real gender therapist don't take their advice...

[mikeyp]

Hahaha, yeah, I just remember having this intense desire to find a girlfriend. So I started talking to this chick for awhile and she rejected my advances. Being the full of myself guy that I am, I told myself "whatever, I don't need a woman at all, I have myself!". I found myself strangely attracted to this pair of panties in the store where I worked, I decided to buy a few, and it was all downhill from there! This is pretty much my major milestone in finding myself a woman at the moment also.

Extreme addiction would describe this well. Life was def more manageable without knowing I had this part of me, lol. Whatever though, I guess it was inevitable.

[Beverley Sims]

Don't try to analyse things, just go with the flow.

A little fantasy along the way doesn't hurt at all.

Just don't include others in it unless they have already expressed their bent.

[mikeyp]

@Bev

Hehe, that's sadly part of the fetish. Including others in it without even knowing they're taking part in it. I manage to control myself pretty okay though. I guess that's the nature of fetishes. You never know what turns a certain person on. Females turn me on in every way possible, touching them, feeling them, and last but not least, being them

[heatherdress]

Maybe you should see a therapist to address your doubts. I don't believe having a fetish or your enjoyment of crossdressing indicate you are a repressed transsexual. If you enjoy being with women and they turn you on in every way possible, it seems like you should continue to be with them while you also discover and understand your crossdressing needs and behavior.

[Indiana]

Hi all. This is as good a place as any for my first post. For me this is all a fetish I guess. I do love the feel of fish nets and pantyhose. Love the look of 6" platforms on my feet. However, I will try to keep this classy...after I reach orgasm, the thrill of wearing these things is gone. The other night I dressed up, reached my conclusion, and when I was finished I looked at myself in the mirror and thought "you look ridiculous." So I guess the pre orgasm me is my feminine side and post is my male side?? Can anyone relate to this?

[JadeEmber]

That isn't my case, but it's a common thing to hear. For me, I tend to feel like any urge is an annoying interruption, switch to male clothes before, then take a shower after and go back as soon as possible.

It's clearer if there's a clear sexual component, and maybe that's good. If I see something pretty that I don't have or if another color that I'd love, it's a big temptation to get it -- and while I'm closeted, I dress almost 100% at home -- and that could be rooted in some primal urge (of which sexual arousal is perhaps the greatest) -- but I don't feel aroused at all. It could just be some muted thing. As with many people, at puberty, it had some effect when I first put them on, but I just wanted to be past that at that time, until I quit because I was scared of being caught. When I came back to it years later, I figured it would be a fetish, but it wasn't. Didn't help with that, I just loved collecting clothes and wearing them. But it's a compelling hobby.

Also, I don't have any big impulse to pass, although that could be because it would be difficult to do so.

It's more complicated, I think, if you can't be 100% sure why you do what you do, except that it's fun. Since I know people who have transitioned, however, the lack of clarity can make one wonder.

[Rachael Leigh]

For me there was some aspects that were in the fetish category as I enjoyed dressing in little girl clothes and even kinda like a baby girl, I pretty much left that behind but my enjoyment for wearing women's clothes stayed with me.
I've even liked the sissy part too as in a sissy maid but again most of that is behind me. I think I understood it was really just about enjoying the clothes and colors and fabrics of the clothes and so now I'm were I am today just a male CD that just enjoyes being dressed

[Kate Simmons]

It actually started out when I was young as a need to ID myself and my feelings to myself. The fetish part came in when puberty came along more or less. Now that I'm older and have integrated all of my feelings it's mostly about self expression and showmanship.

[Alice_2014_B]

It started with my love of high heels.
I only got fully dressed up with makeup, wig, heels, and a skirt for the sole purpose to walk in high heels in a place other than the house.

[Crissy Kay]

I started that way too, and never stopped!! I have worn a few regular dresses, but they don't do anything for me. I just enjoy my sissy maid outfits, and that is pretty much it.

[sherib]

I was hiding in my mothers big closets when I was about 10. I say her nylon and shoes and tried them on. That was it.

[Katey888]

I don't think you're that unusual as to how you've started - and the fact that CD fetish/hookup websites greatly outnumber those (like this one) of a more cerebral leaning, seems convincing proof that there are plenty more like you for whom this starts as a sexual fetish, develops as a sexual fetish and probably remains as such... You'll just have to accommodate it in life as best you can.

I don't get the 'repressed TS' being related to sissy play - just.. not rational for me, nor have I read that anywhere.

From personal experience, I was first attracted to girls outfits when I was 5 or 6-ish - so nothing sexual then... but a few years later some rather shocking and surprising sexual reactions would be triggered... I think this is seen often at puberty and continues for some time. But that diminished quite a few years back now and there's clearly something deeper at play... Getting away from a sexual element does make it satisfying in a different way and like Kate, for me (we Kates stick together... ) there is great satisfaction in the expression...

Katey x

[CynthiaD]

No. I started when I was 3, long before I knew anything about sex. For me it's all about feeling "correct," and always has been.