I don't have anyone to talk to yet (going to start seeing a therapist soon), so sorry if this is a ramble, just need to get it off my chest. I guess I never gave too much intentional thought to my gender until recently, but it has occurred to me just how uncomfortable I have been as a man. In looking back, I see so many 'indicators', but failed to see them at the time. In some ways I wish I could 'undiscover' this side of me and put the genie back in the bottle, but it is too late... Now I feel trapped in the middle. If I keep on going the status quo, I will always be a little bummed out - If I decide to move forward, and let's say that goes the transgender direction, then that is a whole other can of worms (wife, family, friends, church, job, etc.). Bsically I see no good outcome to this... So incredibly frustrating. I guess I'm just scared.
Anyone else feel this way? How do you cope with it? I just feel like it is taking so much mind-share, and I can't turn it off!