Hey there, I'm a new member to this site but I have been reading posts for a while now and I just want to start off by saying that I look up to each of you all, I consider you all brave.
I say brave because I am the type to over think things and let things get to me, so this has hindered my judgement on my sexuality. And that is where I need some advice.
My first experience with trying on women's clothing was when I was 5 or 6, I would sneak in my older sister's room and try on her clothes sometimes and I mostly ran straight for the panty hose, something about that feeling on my legs that I can't get over. Soon enough I got caught by my father and he just laughed at me but I never dressed again. I guess this caused me to just shut off these signals and feelings I had, I never once thought of being a girl I just liked the clothes and the way they felt.
So now in my late teens and early twenties, these feelings have surfaced again. And lately they've been the majority of my thoughts, I can't get these impulses to dress up and put a wig on and feel as fem as possible. Its very intriguing to me. However, with me being straight, these feelings are very weird to me, they don't feel normal and I don't really know how to react to them.
Please, if it doesn't take too much of your time, could I maybe receive some advice? Maybe even similiar situations that youve been in? I'm open to anything and everything and will answer any questions that there may be! Thank you all for reading and keep on doing you!
ps. thought it may help to clarify some things through explaining my sexuality but I'm not too familiar about what things should be posted and what not.