Why is it that when I get dressed and going thru the motions that feel so real to me, that my style is more of a younger person (40's maybe a little older), I've got my body to a size that I feel good at and I think is more suited to my femme self so I can wear smaller sizes to suit my height and not have to pad so much or bind too much. Yet in the mirror I see an older person that no amount of make-up is going to fix. When I try on clothes and look in the mirror I see a fairly nice girly figure than I see the face and an old "wo-man" shows up, quite unnerving for a short time in the woman's department and dressing area. I've tried to dress the part to fit the face but it just doesn't fit the mind and I feel incomplete as myself. I know looks aren't everything and attitude is but my attitude is diminished some by my unmatched face. Luckily my femme self is so engrained I can go on being me. I can't help but to look in the mirror often to make sure my hair is still in place (style wise that is, not wigged).I guess I'm just in a funk lately with the weather changing and less sunlight during the day hours. Just venting on a holiday evening, days off during the week throws everything haywire. Good-bye all