Ok so maybe not an old head on young shoulders that would look weird lol But a wiser more experienced head most definitely. I have been ''out'' twice in the car late evening dressed up to pick my GF up from work but not out and about strutting it down the high street I guess what I want is, to just have the confidence to do it for real, go out and enjoy being me and not care about what everyone else thinks. I know I will have to go for it to gain experience but its so hard I just don't get it I was the lead singer in a band for years and I have sang in front of thousands of people over the years People would occasionally say to me it takes guts to get up a sing in front of so many people, but that comes naturally to me. Which is why I can't understand why the other day when I planned on going to the cinema en femme I chickened out last minute?? I am so disappointed in myself I went out to look at some shoes with my GF the other day and she asked if I liked anything I saw and I thought someone nearby might hear us so I said no and changed the subject even though there was tons of stuff I liked I know I'm very fortunate to have a supportive SO and I love her so very much, but I find it so hard to shake the fear of public ridicule. Sorry about my rant, some of you may read this and think back to your first time out or some may think I thinking about it too much. Either way I will be facing it in the new year rearing my high heels in excitement and terror but I will do it in the next few weeks and can't wait