Well, I got some great news from the VA during my last mental health appointment. My therapist made a referral to a VA psychologist and based on his recommendation, the psychologist said he would sign off on me starting HRT immediately once I have a teleconference with him on 28 Jan. I'd just have to head down to Milwaukee, WI for the labs, but I'll be on hormones within a month!
Now for the not so fun part that has been causing a good deal of havoc. I got married in June to my wife with her already knowing and being more than accepting of my transition. The problem we are facing is that I've never wanted kids at all and she does. We never really talked about it before because she has PCOS and was told by her DR that it would be nearly impossible for her to have kids. Well, she knows that I am the last member of my family to carry on my family name and she really really wants a baby with me so this has been a constant issue the last few weeks. I know how much she wants a baby so I conceded and accepted it, but now she thinks I did because I feel obligated. I feel selfish for not wanting a baby and she feels selfish for making me wait even longer to start HRT. I mean, we had a 4 hour argument on New Year's Eve about this and I thought we came to a compromise, but she just told me she cancelled all of her appointments with the DR and told me to start HRT as soon as I get them. Now I feel even worse about wanting to transition, like I am going to lose no matter what I do.
How have any of you handle a situation like this?