I dress and regardless of how long I can stay en femme, I just don't want to revert to boy mode. Once I've dressed it feels right, it feels normal and changing back to guy clothes is very difficult and occasionally emotional. I'd prefer to stay home or hide in my rooms rather than put myself in a situation where I need to change. This is getting out of hand and doesn't feel at all like the Pink Fog where I'm willing to spend my money and put myself in the public eye, I just don't want to go back to being a guy.
Part of my problem may be that I've had a cast on my foot for almost 3 months, no weight bearing at all, so it's either crutches or a knee scooter (a great invention). It's difficult to get out and a lot of hard work when I do, so I don't go out much, particularly with the weather so darn cold. So I have lots of time at home with no one dropping in and all that free time to think about or actually wear the stuff in my closet. That being said, I do go back and things are okay for a while, but it can be a struggle as I wait for my next chance to get right.
Not sure exactly where this is all leading and maybe when I'm mobile in a couple of weeks and have more choices this will be less consuming, but for right now it almost has me worried.