I don't know what's going on, yes in the past the feelings would come and go, but never like this. I don't fully dress to often but underdressing is my everyday life. It's been two weeks since I haven't put on anything fem, that has to be a life time record for me.
Last night we were going shopping and my wife asked me what I was wearing under, I told her nothing, she didn't believe me and asked me to drop my pants, I did and she was surprised to see I was wearing male underwear.
While shopping at Walmart she would ask me if I needed anything for Maria, if I needed pantyhose or she would point out a skirt or dress that maybe I would want. When we got home she told me that the kids are out and Maria could have a few hours to dress. When she seen that I sat on the couch and starting watching tv, she sat next to me and asked me what's going on, that she hasn't seen pantyhose laying around the bedroom floor lately and why she hasn't washed any of my panties in the last few washes. When she wouldn't take the answer nothing as a reason, I told her I didn't know myself but iam assuming it's because I'm getting fed up alittle. I told her, when I'm home everyone is home, and when I'm out the house is empty, and as soon as I get home within minutes someone comes home, the kids make plans and I get all excited, just to hear the same thing all the time that the plans have changed and I get disappointed. I told her as far as dressing tonight that I was tired and if I dressed up I would have to be alert and on guard that maybe someone will come barging threw that door, and that I would rather sit on the couch and relax and just getting tired of the disappointment and waiting and maybe just tired of the same Sh&t.
Believe it or not she told me that this is not normal for me, and that she misses Maria, and how much she loves shopping and sharing and giving each other advice on fashion and having so much in common and hopes I snap out of it, and not to let my gift go. I always considered it a curse and she sees it as a gift. She has told me in the past to go for a drive or go to a motel for a day, but it's just not the same, I want it and I want it on my terms, and as of lately it's been a tiring frustrating battle for time and disappointment, so why put myself through this when I don't have to, it tiring.
Anybody here give me some positive that maybe it happened to you and how long it took to come around and if it was like a light switch or how you came back around. As of now I'm not even thinking of if and looks like my wife misses it more then me.