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    Silver Member Maria 60's Avatar
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    Don't know why,

    I don't know what's going on, yes in the past the feelings would come and go, but never like this. I don't fully dress to often but underdressing is my everyday life. It's been two weeks since I haven't put on anything fem, that has to be a life time record for me.
    Last night we were going shopping and my wife asked me what I was wearing under, I told her nothing, she didn't believe me and asked me to drop my pants, I did and she was surprised to see I was wearing male underwear.
    While shopping at Walmart she would ask me if I needed anything for Maria, if I needed pantyhose or she would point out a skirt or dress that maybe I would want. When we got home she told me that the kids are out and Maria could have a few hours to dress. When she seen that I sat on the couch and starting watching tv, she sat next to me and asked me what's going on, that she hasn't seen pantyhose laying around the bedroom floor lately and why she hasn't washed any of my panties in the last few washes. When she wouldn't take the answer nothing as a reason, I told her I didn't know myself but iam assuming it's because I'm getting fed up alittle. I told her, when I'm home everyone is home, and when I'm out the house is empty, and as soon as I get home within minutes someone comes home, the kids make plans and I get all excited, just to hear the same thing all the time that the plans have changed and I get disappointed. I told her as far as dressing tonight that I was tired and if I dressed up I would have to be alert and on guard that maybe someone will come barging threw that door, and that I would rather sit on the couch and relax and just getting tired of the disappointment and waiting and maybe just tired of the same Sh&t.
    Believe it or not she told me that this is not normal for me, and that she misses Maria, and how much she loves shopping and sharing and giving each other advice on fashion and having so much in common and hopes I snap out of it, and not to let my gift go. I always considered it a curse and she sees it as a gift. She has told me in the past to go for a drive or go to a motel for a day, but it's just not the same, I want it and I want it on my terms, and as of lately it's been a tiring frustrating battle for time and disappointment, so why put myself through this when I don't have to, it tiring.
    Anybody here give me some positive that maybe it happened to you and how long it took to come around and if it was like a light switch or how you came back around. As of now I'm not even thinking of if and looks like my wife misses it more then me.

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    My home is currently not my own either Maria, I feel your pain believe me. Can't say my wife feels quite the same as yours, but she does recognize my gloom, and is somewhat empathetic. As I'm not willing to just say to he!! with them, and place my own wants and needs above those of everyone else in our home, I get tired of "the same Sh&t" as well. I try to stay as positive, creative, and flexible as I can, in order to find ways to enjoy my life as often as I can. I also keep looking forward to better days with more freedom ahead, as although they could be years down the road, they will come. That doesn't always work, but it's all I've been able to come up with to this point.


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    Hi Maria,

    I cannot say that I've been in your exact situation before, as I do not dress that often; and for some of the reasons you describe above. I get to the point of "why bother" or fed up with some of challenges as well. I think if there is any positive here in this situation, it's that your wife sat down and had the conversation with you that she she did. That's a pretty amazing lady you got there, who is missing one of her best friends it sounds like. (Remember marriage's golden rule: Happy wife, happy life! In this case, go put on a dress big fella )

    I hope (and suspect) it will all work out. Be positive and patient. I don't think there is a magical number for you in this situation.

    Danielle

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    Maria - Your feelings are understandable and have been shared by others. Accept your frustration and don't let your limitations get you depressed. You are very fortunate to have an accepting spouse who encourages you to crossdress and be you. You do have limitations being a dad, but maybe you can find events to mitigate your current frustrations. Get away weekends and crossdresser groups or events might be possibilities. Can you leave the kids with a relative or friend and get away as Maria your wife on weekends? Good luck, and don't stay down.

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    Call me Pam pamela7's Avatar
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    i'd say it's time to tell the children, come out and show them it's okay, so they don't be intolerant in their lives - i don't believe in keeping this secret.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJFyz73MRcg
    I used to believe this, now I'm in the company of many tiggers. A tigger does not wonder why she is a tigger, she just is a tigger.

    thanks to krististeph: tigger = TG'er .. T-I-GG-er

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    The only family in not out to is my grandmother who lives with us because of her age, she goes to bed around 10 so if I want friends up when I'm Sarah I've to wait until then which isn't always suitable.
    If I'm on a day off I can dress in the morning briefly unless I want breakfast or a glass of water and need to change back to go downstairs in case she's moving about.

    I'm debating telling her but my mom doesn't think it will go down well because of her generation but I'll still mull that over.
    I'll hazard a guess that your wife doesn't want your kids to know? Perhaps discussing that with her if you felt comfortable with them knowing?
    Otherwise your feelings will pass in time, how long? Who knows but it's very hard to keep the same feelings for too long.

    I fear I'll have that problem soon when I go back to college, I go in Monday to Thursday and work Thursday to Sunday so it leaves minimal free time for myself which I've to divide between socialising and family.
    I cant stand to fly, I'm not that naive. I'm just out to find the better part of me. I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane, I'm more than some pretty face beside a train. Its not easy to be me.

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    There's that smile! CarlaWestin's Avatar
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    So, stop crossdressing and be only a male emulator for a full year. No matter what opportunity arrives, do not fill it in with being fem. Mark the calendar and don't break the plan. And, dismiss the thoughts in your head about being a sexy girl.

    Just kidding.

    I'm hearing that the false stigma of femulation being wrong, is playing on you. And really, you got so many other distractions (priorities) that your cd'ing is becoming annoying.

    So, you and your wife need to treat Maria as something like a vacation you can take together when the distractions and interruptions are redirected.
    I've waited so long for this time. Makeup is so frustrating. Shaking hands and I look so old. This was a mistake.
    My new maid's outfit is cute. Sure fits tight.
    And then I step into the bedroom and in the mirror, I see a beautiful woman looking back at me.
    Smile, Honey! You look fabulous!

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    Maria, Carla gave you some really good advise, pamela7 not good; You have a wife everyone of us would love.

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    Hi Maria,

    I think Carla's advice is good too... I'm not in your situation (not out to wife) but I do feel that sometimes this isn't a 'pastime' that can be forced - you just have to feel right about the time, the environment and how you feel yourself... just give it time and watch some football or read a book instead... the feeling and the opportunity will return...

    Katey x
    "Put some lipstick on - Perfume your neck and slip your high heels on
    Rinse and curl your hair - Loosen your hips, and get a dress to wear"
    Stefani Germanotta

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