Hi ladies, I'd like to share something with you.
I'm 18 yrs old and I dream of living life like a woman (or as close as it gets). I've been crossdressing for 4 years, but I keep wanting more of it every single day. I love it! I've been fluctuating between my male and female self several times throughout the years and I had anxiety issues for long enough. What I recently come to understand though, is that every time my female self comes back, it's stronger. All these months I was developing my male self trying to avoid "pink fog", but it's back, and I kinda feel like it's for good this time..
I have this one female friend, which I know quite a few years now and she has trusted me with many of her issues and I have I helped her very much. In a costume party I went fully dressed with my makeup and such and I remember that she was SO. EXCITED. with my looks. We had a lot of fun together and she kept giving me compliments. (Bear in mind we were never sexually attracted to one another.)
This evening I invited her to my house because "I need someone to talk to".. I want to tell her everything.. I always thought that if I was a girl, we'd be best friends. She is a real, beautiful woman and she knows a ton of stuff about makeup and clothes and everything. She is almost my role model.. I need some true guidance by a person that knows me, because the internet is never good enough on its own. The good thing is, knowing her, I think she won't dislike my looks regardless of what she thinks about gender identity challenged men.. haha
I'm dead anxious though.. I'm afraid how she'll take it.. If you have any advice or any kind words to say please feel free.. I need this..