Why do I get so giddy over wearing my big girl panties, makeup and high heels? Why do I act like a 10 year old girl wearing mommy's heels, makeup, jewelry?
I was thinking about getting ears pierced, so I bought cheap magnetic earrings as a trial. They were little gem studs but came in packaging designed for children. I put them on and liked them. But later when i was looking in the mirror, it hit me. I'm acting like a little kid.
Now, I feel kind of embarrassed that I do this. It's like a weakness. How much time have I spent pretending? Shaving? Epilating? Make up? Shopping?
All the while, it seems I'm just a kid walking around and pretending.
Now when I look at myself, I see that little kid picture where the kid did her own makeup, wears her mom's oversized high heel shoes, with self made up hair and oversized dress. You know where the little girl is having a tea party with her stuffed animals.
I'm conflicted. I think I'm done.