Let's get physical! Well, metaphysical at least. Where does she go when you change back to boy mode?
Many of us spend a lot of time and effort in creating a female persona complete with name, fashion sense, wardrobe, experiences, likes and fears. We say we love the time spent as that feminine version of ourselves. But there are times when we feel we must present as our birth gender and take care of life's demands and expectations.
How far from your feminine self is your masculine self in behavior? Has it changed over the years? If there is a big difference, where does "she" go and does it seem that the greater the distance the more disruption there is while she is gone from sight? Do you think you are doing damage to your personality through this compartmentalization or do you think it's necessary to keep life under control?
Sarah is usually pretty close to the surface for me, although it doesn't normally look like it. Attitudes and interests remain the same and I think they may have been migrating toward the feminine but maybe it's always been that way. I've been told by more than one person that Sarah is more open and easier to get along with than Dave. She doesn't go anywhere, but for some reason I do behave differently but at those times it sure seems like she is somewhere else. Still working on finding that balance.