Last night I did something that for me has never fully happened. I went out from behind the door of my apartment in, what is for me, my full cross-dressed self. It wasn’t to anywhere other than to quickly walk the dog, and it was very early in the morning (3am I think) but it was exhilarating none the less. I have gone out wearing leggings before (black only) and that has been it. What made this time different was that I was also wearing a woman’s night shirt and a bra that made it obvious that I had boobs. I say that it was exhilarating, but in all honesty it was a mix of feelings and anxiety. I was worried about someone seeing me and I was in a hurry to get back behind the safety of my apartment door. It was exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. I was out for about 10 mins which seemed at the time like the longest 10 mins of my life. Once back inside I couldn’t get back to sleep because I was ecstatic that I had gone out without transitioning back. It was a big step for me personally and I want to do it again but am not sure of when or how it will happen. Most likely very late at night and again only for a short dog walk.
When was your first time out as your CD self? Do you remember what it felt like? How did you react when you returned back to your “safe zone”. Were you noticed by anyone and if so what were the looks you received?