If you aren't feeling it right now, that is perfectly cool. Don't crossdress under those conditions. Crossdressing should not be the most important thing in your life.
Right now you should be doing things that do give your life meaning and purpose. Concentrate on loving acts of service to your wife and children. Plan some quality time with them. Play with your kids. Seek truth, practice love and relish beauty everywhere.
Pretty soon, you'll be feeling the urge to crossdress again. Crossdress when you feel you need to crossdress.
