To my wife my dressing isn't about me wearing women's clothes to her it's about the bond, it's about she's the only one who holds my secret, when we are out and she looks over at me with a little grin knowing what iam wearing under. It's about the sharing of articles and shopping together and the little risk we take.
Well for some reason the other night I opened my eyes to something, I realized that I've changed and didn't even realize it.
The other night we went out for dinner, and after walked around the mall and I found a skirt on the clearence rack.
As we were walking in the parking lot my wife asked me if I wanted to wear my new skirt for the ride home, well I don't know about you but I will do anything for her when it comes to dressing. We get to the car and with my door half open I take off my pants quickly and already wearing pantyhose I put the skirt on and jump in the car with my wife looking around making sure nobody seen me. We haven't did something like this in a while and I could see it on my wife's face that she loves the thrill of it, like an adventure or the fear of someone seeing me, taking a risk.
We drive off and I look down at my feet and I don't see heels, instead I see the reinforced toe of my pantyhose, I look up my legs and see the skirt and then my male t shirt and male leather jacket and a glance in the mirror of a male face . I now don't feel like Maria or feminine, I feel like a man driving with a skirt on and feel a discomfort and almost disgust, I reach back and get my jacket and cover myself. My wife very surprised with my actions asked me what was going on that I also love the thrill of taking chances and expressing myself.
If you read my last time out I had a little bit of a discomfort moment and my wife asked if it was about that, I didn't think so, I just wanted to get home fast as possibly.
Before joining this community a few years ago, I never thought about a wig or make-up and jewelry, but now I have all of that, and now when I dress I can't dress without a wig. Before a skirt and slip and a pair of pantyhose and I was in heaven. I realized that I have changed, besides wearing pantyhose under my jeans almost everyday, I can't do the half and half anymore, I can't put on a skirt and pantyhose anymore, if im going to take risks it's going to have to be fully dressed now.
When I dress now I want to look and feel and act like a women, I've come a long way and didn't even know it. After explaining to my wife what I believe happened she reminded me about so many time that we would pull over on the side of country roads and I would get changed out in the open and driving with only pantyhose or a slip on was so satisfieing for me and the thrill of being seen. I told her that I have changed, it's not about the thrill anymore, its about being more of a complete women and reminded her that the past year I have drove fully dressed on more then one occasion. It's hard to go back to chicken when you are use to eating steak. I don't believe it myself, what was so amazing for me a few years ago now doesn't mean anything. I've come further then I even realized myself, I have to look like a women now, fully dressed without a wig iam a man wearing a dress. I feel as if the thrill was great when I was younger but now I have matured and evolved to a new level. Anyone else look back and see how far we have really come.
Just kidding!