I went to my Sociology class dressed the other day, which I have done several times now. The students are absolutely wonderful and I feel very comfortable.
Anyway, a girl that sits near me and her boyfriend walked out of class with me. She started talking about makeup, asking what I wear and making recommendations. It was really cool to talk to a gg about girl things, but with her boyfriend standing there I felt uncomfortable. More than that, it was difficult for me to sustain the conversation as I really don't have too much experience with makeup.
She was very sweet and I wanted so bad to feel like a gg talking to her, but instead I felt like an imposter. Still, it was a new experience as Christina to even talk to someone for a sustained conversation. I did take her advice and bought a more expensive mascara. Wow, good makeup costs a lot!
Going to class dressed has been a huge step.for me and it has worked out better than I could have imagined. The acceptance I have felt was absolutely unexpected and the instructor (a gg) is happy to have me in her class dressed.
It's too bad that I can't accept myself a little more, but when I walk back to my car I feel really good inside that I'm accepted as Christina.