18 days post OP

[Suzanne F]

I am flying home after 6 days in my home state of Kentucky. I somehow flew back to my daughters graduation 12 days after surgery. It has been an arduous and emotional trip. Either theme bravest or dumbest thing I have ever done. Maybe both! On the way here I had to stand in the back of the plane from Las Vegas to Louisville as I couldn't sit anymore. It was hell mad I have never been so happy to get off a plane.

The graduation was difficult. I had to face my ex wife, her husband and my ex mother and father in law as Suzanne for the first time. They were less than gracious. There I was all alone and hurting kind of apprehensive as KY is not that accepting. Maybe I blended in better than I thought. Anyway I was there for my daughter and that was the important thing.

My family lives 2 hours away. Against all advice I made the car trip hoping they might finally agree to see me. What a miracle! I saw my step father, my sister and brother and even my mother. Saw me for the first time! No everything isn't all perfect but I am at peace now. I faced them and they saw me, the real me. They may not accept me but they said they loved me!

I am exhausted. I need some rest and I have more healing to do. I fly in tonight and I have my second post OP surgeon appt tomorrow at 11. I feel alone and lost. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I am glad I ran all those marathons. I know I can make it in the end!

Suzanne

[Laura912]

I can barely begin to fathom the angst with which you have dealt. It is only by helping many patients, that I have some understanding beyond the technical part of your surgery. Your courage is phenomenal or "awesome" as the younger generation would say. Flying six days after the surgery was the dumbest and bravest at the same time, but the reason is understandable. What parent doesn't want to celebrate their child's accomplishment? Hope that the healing goes faster...best to you.

[jentay1367]

Holy crap, Suzanne....you are either the toughest woman on this or any other planet..... or the biggest masochist I've never met. At any rate, congratulations? Whatever. This proves you can take whatever is dished out to you and at the very least, you're no one to be trifled with. I'm awed and impressed and blown away. I certainly would not want to be on your bad side...L.O.L. Lisa

[Heidi Stevens]

You deserve a long rest, Suzanne! When you set out to get some thing done, you get in there and do them with the tenacity of a marathoner. Get the operation, fly back to a hostile environment, face the exes and your own and return back all with in a month!? No one can claim that you aren't one tough lady! I am in awe. Good luck on the follow up.

[Lauri K]

You have proven that you are strong that's for sure, both physically and mentally.

I always say family is the worst folks to deal with, whether you are changing jobs, moving, winning at the casino whatever they are never happy it seems.

Get some much needed rest !!!

PS I cannot believe 18 days has passed already, whew.

[Bria]

Suzanne, you need and deserve a long rest, facing the ex, the ex-in-laws, even your own family all in the space of a day while you were in pain is more than most anyone would be able to do. I hope that you can get some good rest at home to speed your recovery from the surgery as well as the stress of meeting all those people.

I wish you peace and I will remember you in my prayers.

Hugs, Bria

[Marcelle]

Hi Suzanne,

Wow that is quite the ordeal and so soon after surgery . . . you are one strong lady. Hopefully now you can get back to healing and moving forward.

Cheers

Marcelle

[Jennifer-GWN]

Suzanne... You are indeed one tough lady and I know how important that trip was for you on many levels. Good for you as you endured a great deal to accomplish this so soon after surgery. Graduation with your daughter priceless. Closure and peace with your immediate family equally important regardless of the outcome for your own mental health. Now time to heal...heal from surgery... Heal mentally and let the cards fall where they may going forward with the family as the seeds been planted.

My best wishes and admiration!!!

Cheers... Jennifer

[Eringirl]

Amazing Suzanne...such a testament to your strength and commitment to your daughter! Now, time to take care of you....

[PretzelGirl]

Now you have me tearing up! You are strong for all you did but I am surprised you went and saw your family and happy it went so very well. What a relief and great experience. Rest well now, you have gone past deserving it.

[Jenn A116]

I doubt anything I could write will help you, but perhaps a will be some comfort as you face the changes.

[Suzanne F]

Update
I had my second post OP doctor appointment today. My vagina is not healing as well as hoped. It may be due to my diabetes. I have got to get my sugar down and rest. It was a wake up call and scared me. My doctor assured me it would be ok but I am worried. So I have got to rest and heal.
Suzanne

[Rianna Humble]

Sorry to read that Suzanne. Also worries me for if I ever get my own other health issues under enough control for GCS.

Please take very good care of yourself

[Jennifer-GWN]

My god girl take it easy. You've been going hard at lately. No question that diabetics take longer to heal for anything and something this invasive will clearly need time. Time to go on home recoup mode and relax it will pay major upside dividends in the long run.

I worry about you... Ya just can't sit still can ya ��

Be well Suzanne!!!

[pamela7]

brave, treading where angels fear, facing huge stresses - this is a massive experience, you will need rest and care and time, there is no rush now, xxx Pam

[Evana]

Dear Suzanne,

Please stay strong and also try to take care of yourself. For every reply to your post there are thousands of people who choose not to reply for various reasons. You are my idol and I admire you for your courage. I am glad you went to your daughter's graduation. You chose to do the right thing and you did it right.

I live in NY and I see people willing to accept. Ahhhh, only if I had the chance to be a girl too. Enjoy!

Sincerely,

Evana

[KymberlyOct]

Suzanne, I am new to the forum but have read several of your posts. Thanks for opening up so much for those of us following in your footsteps. Regarding your doctor and your concerns, if you are told not to worry then please don't. They know when to hit the alarm bells, I know having dealt with cancer and 2 heart attacks. Just do what they tell you and if they say you will be fine you most probably will be.
Regarding your family, I know you are living it and I am just planning it.... but.... that said. I have come out to my brother and sister in law who fortunately were accepting. I am steeling myself for the 'worldwide' coming out. I am prepared for reactions to run the gamut but please remember for yourself as I plan to, if they are not accepting of you it is their loss and your gain. They are not worthy of your love or friendship. Give those things to the people that deserve them and will reciprocate.
Please take care of yourself so that you can enjoy being the real you.
All the best
Kym

[Starling]

Suzanne, please take care of yourself. You're going to need that body for a long time.

Lallie