One thing I remember is that we were beat in us that we had to be men. The was no other outlet. Whenever we showed feminine aspects it was kicked out of us by beatings or very harsh punishment. So, today it is much easier. I don't regret it as the time was different. But the fact that we still know what we are is fantastic. It could not be beat of us and now we can display our feminine aspects and that in in self is super.