So I have been really searching myself to find out about myself and only after talking with several people in the LGBT community I was pointed to this topic.
Autogynephilia
Basically, I am attracted to female clothing for intimate reasons. When I am finished being intimate, I am completely done being "en femme". According to those I talked to, this was the biggest reason why I was directed to this topic in particular.
I've lived for years now assuming I was a crossdresser. Is this really what I have been searching for? Please give some insight if you have it.