Suzanne I am certain your decision to live your life as you feel authentic was the correct one. You are living proof of my earlier statement I made. You and others on here are in part why I made it. We can serve others best when we are healthy happy individuals. Better partners, friends, family members and as parents.
My wife has even agreed I am a better person now after I accepted my own gender variance. I'm sober, more calm and rational. I think more clearly (a lot of that from sobriety) but sobriety has only been successful since my own acceptance.
Yes, she struggles with it at times. She has felt a bit of conflict. I have not walked your path, mine no where near what you have had to traverse. The concept though I believe has a similarity to it. I would not bet much on my wife being able to handle it if I lived fully as female.... but she has also over time come to handle what i am far better than what she thought she would.