What happened to me? I don't get those finger points the under breath comments the stares of disgust the giggles from the young and all the rest. When did I care so much about how I'm seen when out in as much as I need to color match, my best face, my hair neat and styled, jewelry on and leaning to the femme side even in male mode which is becoming less and less as I feel so comfy and natural en-femme. Am I just an effeminate male by nature now that I've stopped pretending that I'm a macho guy and never do anything feminine. I've found that people are no longer taken aback when dealing with me face to face, I guess I've lost all shame in my demeanor and it must show. Makes me wonder some times.
